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Thursday, October 29, 2009 [10:58 PM]
The truth hurts and the lies worse, how can I give anymore when I love you a little less than before?

I WILL BE IN AMERICA FROM THE 30TH OF OCTOBER - 13TH OF NOVEMBER.
You'll all be missed. Dearly.
Well maybe not cause i'll probably not think of you guys while i'm away ;)
Okay I'm kidding, I will miss you all very much.
I'll most likely be able to go on facebook briefly and I'll post a status update just to let everyone know how I am and stuff :) And twitter as well.
www.twitter.com/berlyyy :)
and if you're special enough i might even comment you on facebook ;)
YAY KTHXBAI.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009 [3:33 PM]
never thought it would be this hard

You’re everything I thought you never were,
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been,
But still you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget, the only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase the times that you hurt me, and put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say, I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe, I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath without you babe, I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart and I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl, no, no
No broken-hearted girl, I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid that you would never come around
And still I want to put this out, you say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me, and still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes there are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain, 'cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you, I’m happy to say, that I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe, I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath without you babe, I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart and I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl, no, no
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be,
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me,
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away

I don’t wanna be without my baby, I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath without my baby, I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way,
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl, broken-hearted girl, no, no
No broken-hearted girl, no broken-hearted girl
Monday, October 26, 2009 [12:58 AM]
& you hold me closer than I can ever remember being held

I did not expect the intense feeling of sadness that overwhelmed me from the first minute I decided to stop liking him. It's not supposed to be this way. My feelings weren't supposed to be this deep.... but they were. And I'm trying so, so hard but I really don't think they're going to disappear anytime soon.

You want to stay with me in the morning, you only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water, but now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you, another piece backs away.

Cause you give me something, that makes me scared alright,
This could be nothing, but I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something cause someday I might know my heart.

You only waited up for hours, just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers, I can't work out what they mean,
I never thought I would love someone that was someone else's dream.

Cause you give me something, that makes me scared alright,
This could be nothing but I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something cause someday I might call you from my heart.

But it might be a second too late,
And the words I could never say, gonna come out anyway.

Cause you give me something, that makes me scared alright,
This could be nothing but I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something...

Cause you give me something, that makes me scared alright,
This could be nothing but I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something cause someday I might know my heart...
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009 [8:22 PM]
life's what you make it, so let's make it right

Depressed. I got my first B in chemistry today, and i've been depressed since. Oh and I also had to get two injections and injections are my worst nightmare :( Anyways, all that's over and I plan on having a relaxed Tuesday night with my mother. :)
ON A BRIGHTER NOTE:
10 DAYS UNTIL AMERICA :)
Sunday, October 18, 2009 [12:54 AM]
I tend to disappear here & there, so concentrate and you'll feel me everywhere;

Have you ever thought of the future? Ever wondered what your life would be 10 years from now? I have - Trust me, I have. I'm the type of person who likes to know what happens - I don't like being kept in the dark, and the sad thing I can't change is that life is a mystery.
You have no idea what's going to happen until it actually happens. And no matter how much it annoys me, I can't change that fact. I have all these dreams of how I want my life to be when I'm older, but there's no way for me to know if it actually comes true, and that fact alone makes me sad. What if I don't become a doctor? What if I don't marry the perfect guy and don't get the 2 kids I want? What if the guy I do end up with is some abusive alcoholic and he didn't show me his true colours until we got married? If someone gave me a chance to look into the future now, I would. I would find out what my life would be like in 10 years, even if the truth hurt, and it wasn't how I expected to turn out. And once I knew what was coming, I would mentally prepare myself, or if it was something I could change by doing something else now, I would.
But in the end - I can't see the future and I have no clue whatsoever as to what's going to happen and dreaming about being able to do that isn't helping at all.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009 [11:46 PM]
the stars lean down to kiss you, and i lie awake and miss you, pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.

The silence isn't so bad,
'Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

Completely obsessed with Owl City. Every lyric I post is probably from that band haha :)
They have beautiful lyrics! :o
Anyways.....
Today I purchased tickets for..
TAYLOR SWIFT

THAT'S RIGHT. I'm going to see Taylor Swift live. AND IT'S MOSHPIT. Be jealous.
Ohhh, I'm SO EXCITED!!!

I'm also going to the AUSTRALIAN OPEN 2010 :)
Hopefully I see Andy Roddick live ;) That'll make my year.

Anyways, 2010 is going to be amazing! Well, besides the start of VCE, it's going to be AWESOME. I'm happy :D