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Tuesday, April 29, 2008 [7:24 PM]
I can't stop the tears from falling.

What is wrong with me?
Why am I like this, every single day?
Steph's msn name is right.
Emotions cause you nothing but grief.
I have to move on.
Why can't I?
It's not that hard, right?
Yeah, right.
I feel that my blogposts are getting more and more depressing each day.
I don't mean for them to be depressing, I just feel like this.
I'm sorry to everyone reading this.
I'm sorry for feeling like this.
I just can't help it.
I'm sorry.
Monday, April 21, 2008 [8:27 PM]
i am sick of life.

The line Best Friends Forever is getting a little old. The more we say it, the faster it loses it's meaning. Maybe it's time for me to realise that BFF doesn't exist. I should stop clinging to certain people and move on.

To V.
We're in the same school, yet I feel we're drifting apart. I've always thought of you as a best friend, but I'm not sure if you thought of me as a best friend. Maybe it's because we're in different classes, but we were in different classes in year 7 and 8, and our friendship managed to overcome those obstacles. Why now? It's not the same anymore, is it? When i see you around school, it's like as if we're acquaintances. A small hello, and a wave, and that's it.
I thought we were best friends. I really did.
If we were best friends, I wouldn't be the only one putting effort into this friendship.
I guess it was a one-sided thing, huh?
Best Friends Forever.

To T.
So I've moved schools, and we still talk on msn, but it's not the same as seeing each other everyday at school, right? Everything is so different now, and when we talk on msn, the conversation stops because we have nothing to say to each other. On the phone, it's even worse. There's always an awkward silence. Is this really how a friendship should be like?
I think this time though, it's because of me. I live so far away now, so I can never meet up, and on msn or on the phone, I can never think of what to say to keep the conversation continuous.
I blame myself for slowly destroying this friendship.
I blame myself for everything.
I'll try my best to fix things up between us. I just hope it's not too late.

To A.
You're one of the two people I can trust with my life. I don't know how I would've lived if I didn't have you in my life. I've known you since I was 2 years old, and I'm glad our friendship is still strong. We live in different countries, yet we're still best friends. we've had our ups and downs, and I've done things to you that I should never have. I still feel bad about it, to this day. I'm just so unbelievably glad you gave me a second chance.
You're the only person who understands me inside out.
You always see through me, even when I'm trying my hardest to act happy.
I miss you and I wish you were here.

To S.
I'm usually mean to you, cause you're the youngest in the group, but I hope you know that you're the other person I know that I can trust with my life. I can trust you with anything, and I know that if I tell you a secret, you'll keep it as a secret. Your friendship is something I live for. I hope you never change, and I hope our friendship never changes. This BFF status between you and me, is what's keeping me alive.
You will always be my best friend and I hope we never drift apart.
Cause if that ever happens, I think I would die.
Sunday, April 20, 2008 [4:15 PM]
life is better when it's upside down.

I’m going away to be alone, I’m coming back with answers,
Don’t try to call my telephone it’s disconnected,
And I don’t know where I’m going but can you guide me,
But if I find love where I’m going will it survive me,
‘Coz in your own space you’re disconnected and in your own mind you’re not affected
And in your own time you’re still attracted but in your own life,
This heart attack I’ve gotta get away not coming back,
I want some downtime so call me when you can and I’ll be fine.

Tomorrow is the start of the 3rd week of a freaaaaaaaaaking 12 week term.
9 weeks to go! I think i'm going to die...
Yesterday was soooooooooo awesome though!
I went to Essendon to play squash with Lorraine, and it was so damn fun.
I played squash for like 2 hours without stopping, basically.
Well, maybe like short 15 minute breaks or something. :P
But you know what I mean...
It was so funny cause like Lorraine was meant to be on a no chocolate or lollies diet,
and then she saw a milo bar and was like "Is milo chocolate?"
and i was like -.- "What do you think?"
Then she was like "No, really. Is Milo chocolate?"
I was like "Yeah..." Then i started laughing, and said "omg, you've been eating milo, haven't you?"
and she's like "I've been DRINKING milo, not eating milo."
i was like "Same thing! Omg, I can't believe you didn't know Milo was chocolate."
then she was like "Milo is COCOA."
By now, we were like hysterical. xD
So yes, it was a 'had to be there' moment, really.
You probably don't get it from this very gay explanation.
Not that anyone ever comes to my blog to read my blogposts anyways, hahaha.
Today was a boring day, though.
I had to wake up at freaking 8am, because visitors were coming. (like what the hell, who comes at 8am anyways. -_-)
After the visitors left, we went to look at houses cause my family's thinking of buying a house in Australia...(We've been renting for the past few years) We saw a house that we really liked. My dad's really into like the 1930s look, for some weird reason, and this house was like 1930s, hahaha. It's a cute house though, just need some renovation and it'll be good as new. I hope we get the house. IT HAS A POOL. I like pools. Pools are cool. ;D
& now i'm doing gay french homework. Bah.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 [5:46 PM]
yumyum delishhhhhh.

hellohello!
today i'm in a faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabulous mood.
but i'm very very nervous as well, hahahah.
today was a good day,
surprisingly.
but i still miss my old school.
very very much so.
but maybe my new school will get better?
i hope so.
I really hope so.
ANYWAYS.
i have spaghetti and vanilla frappuccino.
life's sweet at the moment. ;D
hahaha, i told mick about my day.
This is how it went.


{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:31 PM):
hahhahaha
well
i had french first
- ღмιсқت says (5:31 PM):
are u very fluent with french?XD
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:31 PM):
and that was lame, cause the teacher told us the three little pigs story AGAIN for the third time
no.
and it was like
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:32 PM):
PETIT KOCHON, PETIT KOCHON, JE VERE ENTRER, JE VERE ENTRER
which means
LITTLE PIG, LITTLE PIG, LET ME IN, LET ME IN!
xD
that makes me laugh every single time.
but okay
then i had home economics
and we have a new assignment
called
'the pasta assignment'
- ღмιсқت says (5:32 PM):
LOL
and and and?
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:33 PM):
and the assignment is basically how we have to make up our own pasta recipe
- ღмιсқت says (5:33 PM):
sugar spice and everything nice?:D
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:33 PM):
and the teacher was like showing us different kind of pasta recipes, like the tomato paste based sauce, or the carbonara sauce or some yucky pesto sauce
um, maybe not sugar and spice
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:34 PM):
but yes, everything nice :P
- ღмιсқت says (5:34 PM):
LOL
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:34 PM):
okay
then i had recess
and like my parents
gave me a whole box of biscuits
for recess.
you know the ones you buy from marks and spencers
- ღмιсқت says (5:35 PM):
mhmm then?
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:35 PM):
and yeah, they were like 'if you want friends, you have to 'buy' them, so share your biscuits with everyone'
i was like wtf. o.o
but yeah, i brought it anyways
and i shared them with the people near me
even though they weren't exactly my friends
then after that, i had science
and we had a sub, thank god
- ღмιсқت says (5:35 PM):
lol
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:35 PM):
so like everyone was playing computer games and stuff
- ღмιсқت says (5:35 PM):
OMG...
I WANT!
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:36 PM):
hahahha, the useful thing about using laptops at schoool
so like, anyways, yeah
then we had lunch
- ღмιсқت says (5:36 PM):
omg laptops in sch.
u making me SO JEALOUS
*stabs myself in the leg*
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:36 PM):
LOL
- ღмιсқت says (5:36 PM):
ok go on
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:36 PM):
you're at home, you tool
you don't need a laptop at schoolo
school*
lol
- ღмιсқت says (5:36 PM):
i know im at home
but its BORING to be ALONE
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:37 PM):
hahahaha
i would be like partyinggggggg
and pretending to be sick at the same time. xD
anyways, um, then i had lunch
so right now we're at like 12.40pm k
- ღмιсқت says (5:37 PM):
0.0
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:37 PM):
i looked for my friends, but couldn't find any
so i'm like 'stuff it, i'm going to be a nerd and go to the library to do maths homework.'
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:38 PM):
so then i grabbed my maths stuff, went to the library, and did maths for like 25 minutes?
- ღмιсқت says (5:38 PM):
hardworking sia:P
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:38 PM):
whatever, hahaha
it was homework
and it was due the next period
lol
- ღмιсқت says (5:38 PM):
no wonder u were rushing it
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:38 PM):
then i went back to my locker
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:39 PM):
and grabbed some stuff that i needed for maths (e.g. calculator)
then i walked into my classroom where i was gonna have homegroup
and sat there, eating biscuits and pretending to do maths
then the bell rang, and everyone started to come into the classroom
and during homegroup
- ღмιсқت says (5:40 PM):
u are allowed to eat in class?D;
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:40 PM):
we were talking about like fundraising
nono, it was still lunch
i was there early
anyways
we were talking about fundraising
and the class captain was like "who wants to sell chocolates again?" (cause last time we sold mars bars)
- ღмιсқت says (5:41 PM):
LOL
and?
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:41 PM):
and only a few people, including me raised up their hand
and mind you, i don't even know why i raised my hand up
cause like
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:42 PM):
last time we sold mars bars
i had to sell two boxes
and i only managed to sell 1 box
and the 2nd box, i had to make my mum buy them all
so now i have a whole box of mars bars at home
LOL
- ღмιсқت says (5:43 PM):
can i have em?
:D
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:43 PM):
no.
:P
anyways
moving on
- ღмιсқت says (5:43 PM):
yes:D
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:43 PM):
my class decided on a stall with all kinds of goodies
and they were like 'omg, the whole class should go to someone's house to bake stuff!'
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:44 PM):
and then the class captain was like 'who is willing to volunteer their house for this?'
and only one girl raised her hand up, cause she was like super enthu
and everyone else was like wtf, i'm not gonna have 20 people in my house
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:45 PM):
so then they were like 'oh, why don't we break into small groups, and each group goes to someone's house to make things?'
so like we broke up into groups of 4
- ღмιсқت says (5:45 PM):
0.0
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:45 PM):
and like
my group, no one was willing to like let the other people come to their house
so we decided that we were all going to make jelly
- ღмιсқت says (5:45 PM):
LMAO
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:45 PM):
WHAT SO FUNNY
LOL
- ღмιсқت says (5:46 PM):
like jelly
who is gonna eat jelly
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:46 PM):
EVERYONE.
- ღмιсқت says (5:46 PM):
u can just go down to the supermarket
- ღмιсқت says (5:47 PM):
and get jelly
LMAO
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; steph stalks people for a living. o; says (5:47 PM):
yeah
that is what we're doing
well
we're getting the packet ones
and making our own.
LOL.
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; mm, vanilla frappuccino. says (5:48 PM):
anyways
MOVING ON,
before you so RUDELY interrupted.
- ღмιсқت says (5:48 PM):
fine fine sorry
:P
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; mm, vanilla frappuccino. says (5:48 PM):
hahaha
so we decided on jelly
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; mm, vanilla frappuccino. says (5:49 PM):
and like the other groups in the class decided on like muffins, cookies and shizz
then we like talked for a bit, and stuff, before the bell rang, and we had to go to next class
LAST PERIOD!
the time is now 2.10pm
i have maths
and maths is like super gay
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; mm, vanilla frappuccino. says (5:50 PM):
and we're like doing freaking linear relationships
and the whole time i really felt like eating chocolate
and like other people in my maths class were selling chocolate
and i really wanted to buy one
but i couldn't, cause like i had no money
so i was very depressed
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; mm, vanilla frappuccino. says (5:51 PM):
but unlike some people, because i'm so hardworking and smart and cool
i take maths seriously
and tried to do the work she gave
looooool
and then at 3.25, i ran out of the classroom
- ღмιсқت says (5:51 PM):
good sis
:D
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; mm, vanilla frappuccino. says (5:51 PM):
well, walked
ran is exaggerating
lol
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; mm, vanilla frappuccino. says (5:52 PM):
and like went to pack my bag and all that nonsense
and then met my father
at where i was meant to meet him
and then we walked down glenferrie road
and i got spaghetti
yumyum delishhhh
then after eating half of my spaghetti
- ღмιсқت says (5:52 PM):
i thought ur dad is in singapore?0.0
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; mm, vanilla frappuccino. says (5:52 PM):
he came on friday
- ღмιсқت says (5:53 PM):
ooh cool
{ ♥Messy State Of Love Affair ; mm, vanilla frappuccino. says (5:53 PM):
yep
then like after spaghetti
we went to starbucks
where i got vanilla frappuccino
mmmmmm, sooooooo goooooooooooood.
lol then like we took the tram back home
and now i'm here.
LOL.
that's the end of my story.

ahahah,
i shall leave you with my final words.
PETIT KOCHON, PETIT KOCHON, JE VERE ENTRER, JE VERE ENTRER! ;D
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Currently listening to: FRIENDS ON TV! (I absolutely adore this show.)
Currently drinking: Starbucks Vanilla Frappuccinoooooo.
Currently eating: SPAGHETTI BOLOGNAISE. BEAT THAT, SUCKERS.
Currently worrying: About my stupid speech for english tomorrow.
Currently feeling: Upbeat and happy!
Monday, April 07, 2008 [7:53 PM]
isn't he gorgeous?

HOW SEXY IS HE?
i'm in love.
ROBERT HOFFMAN IS SEXY;
AND HE'S MINE.
MINE BITCHES, SO BACK OFF.
Anyways,
Holidays was so much fun!
Well, the second half of it anyways. :)
I went over to Kirsten's on Thursday for the day,
we went to frankston, and watched step up 2 and i got trigger trackies,
and some books. :P Yessssssss, more of the gossip girl series.
I'm in love with the books and the tv show. :)
Kirsten got the new Panic At The Disco Cd.
We played guitar hero, caught up with Leah (who's her neighbour)
and we played a lot of sims. LOL.
Then she came back to my place for a sleepover.
On the way back,
Kirsten played the Panic At The Disco cd in the car,
and it's REALLY happy.
i was like LOL!
Cause if you've heard PATD's old cds and songs,
they are rather depressing.
Now it's all like;
'Nine in the afternoon,
your eyes are the size of the moon,
you could cause you can so you do,
feeling so good, just the way that we do,
when it's nine in the afternoon..."
It's a very happy tune - no joke!
Anyways,
We played sims again at my place. :P
Yes, we are losers.
We've established that fact.
Anyways,
the next day,
I went to Kirsten's house AGAIN.
Lol, yes, i know.
It's weird. :P
This time however, we didn't go to frankston,
We stayed at her house the whole time,
Watching gossip girl episodes, playing sims, and all that.
We had ham and cheese jaffles for lunch, and then we watched centrestage.
centrestage is a good movie, btw. :)
it's kinda old, but it's good. :)
Then we played more sims, i guess?
It was a boring day, but it was nice nonetheless, cause I was with my best friend Kirsten. :)
Saturdaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
I STARTED SQUASH!
LORRAINE AND I STARTED SQUASH!
We're gonna be doing squash like every saturday now.
So proud of myself, and my pretty little baby, Lorraine<3
I mean, i haven't seen her for 6 months!
And I like finally see her on saturday.
I WAS SO HAPPY MAN!
Hahaha, we played squash for like an hour, then we sat on the courts talking for like half an hour.
it was fun. :)
we're gonna take lessons soon.
CAN'T WAAAAAAAAAAAAAIT! :D
Sunday...
Slacked.
Today..
SCHOOOL. :'(
First day back.
i was so sad to see the holidays end.
and like omg, this term is a freaking 12 week term!
i think i'm going to die - no joke.
sigh.
life is gonna suckkkkkkkk.
but it was a good first day, i guess.
people were nice.
ish.
and amelia's making me do netball...
i might.
That's all i'm saying. :P
I mean, i want to, but like i'm not sure if i can.
I'll have to ask my mum. =P
Okay, boring and long post... o.o
byeeeeeee now!
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currently listening to: Nine In The Afternoon by Panic At The Disco
currently reading: extras by scott westerfeld
currently watching: so you think you can dance australia ! (I'm addicted. the dancing's too good.)
[4:36 PM]
i love aero and kinder bueno.

pearlyn tagged me, so i have to do this.

Tagged by Pearlyn:
a) List 7 habits / quirks / facts about yourself.
1. Sometimes, I like to make myself puke. No, not because I'm bulimic or anything. I think it's fun. Kinda. It always makes me feel better. (I know i'm weird, k.)
2. I always go on msn afterschool.
3. I'm always very interested in other people's love lives, but I myself don't have one.
4. Everyday afterschool, I always go to the petrol station on my street to buy a kinder bueno.
5. Soap operas make me laugh. Especially Bold and the Beautiful and Days Of Our Lives.
6. I am very scared of knives.
7. I love cold weather.

b) Tag 7 people to do the same.
Sabina
Lorraine
Verity
Elena
Ariel
Esther
Huiwen